Although, I cannot say I have felt exactly like my mother since mom was pretty sedentary and I have tried to stay active, the common thread remains the same. Time has passed so quickly and yes, I see what she meant. It is not just about the friendly or not so friendly mirror and the story it tells of time passing, but the reality that time in this realm is finite.
Every day we read or hear about another famous celebrity of our time that has passed and worse, in our own life, iconic people who we love so much pass on, either unexpectedly or just with enough bygone years.
It's daunting really. I have always been a dreamer, an optimist of sorts, but it becomes more difficult not to dwell on the finality of life and how much time one has left.
My goals now, are shorter term and that feels, well... weird. I was always the youngest in my circle of friends. Finding myself older than everyone I encounter, including co workers humbles me.
Material possessions become less important, almost a burden when I think of someone else going through my personal belongings and having to decipher what goes where when I am gone. Recently, with the move out of state, I have disposed of more than half my household and although I still feel as if I have too much STUFF, it has been a freeing experience. With my continued donations and weekly trips to "Goodwill", they offered me a Rewards Program. Ha, imagine a Goodwill Rewards Program! What exactly are they going to REWARD me with anyway? So now there is one more card in my wallet to carry. UGH!
No, I'm not being morbid, just contemplating the facts of life. Something I am sure everyone does at this point; some sooner, some later. Life is finite in this realm and who knows what or IF something comes next. I do have my beliefs in the spiritual world, but what disturbs me is I am not sure the memories one makes in all realms of life get carried over and taken with you. Based on the fact that I remember NOTHING prior to this life, I think not and I WANT those memories. Everyone who has ever passed through or around my life means something to me, has molded me in some way and I want them with me forever.
Of course, I only ALMOST always get what I want... Tee Hee....
I am blessed to be able to work from home, have my health, family, friends and Cicci but hey, maybe we should get me OUT of the house a while and a little less contemplating, huh? Great, I am doing just that. Went dancing last week, started Yoga class and I volunteered to help and the Boat and Travel show this weekend. I expect fun times and to meet new people which is always a great adventure. Caio for now. Namaste----